What should I do? What should I do? – Trust your Intuition.

Your mind will answer most questions if you learn to relax and wait for the answer.” ~William S. Burroughs

Sitting in my oncologists office I stared at the paperwork in front of me telling me what what treatment I needed to endure to survive from my stage 3 cancer diagnosis.

My heart sank.

All energy and joy left me, to be replaced with fear, confusion, anxiety, and a deep sense of confusion.

As adrenalin rushed through my veins, one question engulfed my mind leaving little room for the answer.

OMG What should I do? What should I do? What should I do?

And then, in that one moment in time, it became clear exactly what I needed to do. I needed to step away from this mans office. I needed to get outside. And I needed to breathe. I needed time to listen and trust my intuition.

So that’s exactly what I did.

Twenty-four hours later I was on the phone explaining to my oncologist that I didn’t feel this treatment option was right for me. That I needed to find another way to heal my body, and that I will look for other ways towards healing.

Once I was home I stepped outside and went for a walk in the bush, I found peace and quiet, and found a sense of calm and understanding, and most importantly, a moment of absolute pure clarity.

My intuition spoke. And I listened to her.

I realised that I had to trust myself, and let go off the fear that was causing me so much distress. Forcing myself to do what he wanted was not an option, it was not what my body and soul needed. 

Instead, I needed to follow my heart.

And so, I let go of that fear and all those negative feelings. And I created space. Empowered myself to believe I could do this.

And do you know what? Once I made that decision, it was like an enormous weight had been lifted from my shoulders.

My energy and joy returned to me in abundance, and I knew with absolute certainty that I had made the right decision.

Tuning into your intuition during troubled times can be difficult. With so much noise, conflicting information presented to us, and clutter within the world, our thoughts can often be clouded with distractions.

I’ve found that during these times the best thing you can do is allow yourself some breathing space.

Stand up and go for a long walk, head out into mother nature to your favourite place, browse some inspiring shops, meditate, sit with a coffee and watch the world go by. Whatever you love doing, whatever calms you, find the time to do it.

Find some quiet space to let your mind wander, and your intuitive voice will have a far greater chance of being heard.

Be honest with yourself.

It can sometimes be very easy to ignore your feelings and push them away.

The fear of failure, of going against the grain, changing direction and of saying “no” can all result in those gut feelings being pushed aside in favour of what may be perceived to be the ‘better’ option.

However, ultimately this is about your journey. And if something doesn’t feel right, then maybe it’s time to take note of that.

Be honest with yourself and acknowledge those unsettled feelings, they are there to guide and support you. Listen to them.

Your intuition wants to guide and support you. So give it the space to be heard.

Justine Laidlaw
About me

I’m Justine Laidlaw, Integrative & Holistic Cancer Coach based in the beautiful Bay of Plenty in New Zealand. I love life, make the most of opportunities and I am certainly not afraid of change. I coach to help change lives as mine was changed drastically in 2013. I run inspiring workshops as a certified “Radical Remission” Teacher from Dr Kelly’s Turners incredible research on cancer patients who have survived a terminal diagnosis. Join me as I continue to promote a healthy lifestyle, balanced nutrition, spiritual knowledge and a safe community to share ideas and positive thoughts and where I inspire others towards optimising their wellness journey of healing and living fully.


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